In the last few weeks, like some of you, I have had some doctor visits and some medical tests. Do not worry. I am doing fine, and everything checked out well. But one of these tests for me recently was a MRI – which stands for “magnetic resonance imaging.” MRI’s happen in a tomb-like tube – and it is very loud, with the machine bouncing magnetic and radio waves to create images of the body. I know some of you are very familiar with MRI testing.
Prior to having a MRI – which means lying in this tightly enclosed space – the question is asked in various ways: “are you claustrophobic?” “Do you panic inside tight spaces?” “Have you ever had a problem with a test like this?”
Claustrophobia is a real thing: an abnormal dread of being in closed or narrow spaces – which is exactly what a MRI machine is.
I spent the long 45 minutes of the test, closed in that tight space, with my eyes closed, singing hymns, reciting favorite passages of Scripture, practicing mindfulness, and striving for calm. I also laid there thinking that that space is very spiritual, because I am sure many prayers and hymns have been recited inside that machine.
Lying in that MRI machine, it is easy to understand why claustrophobia might be a problem for many people. Tight spaces can indeed be dreadful.
Then, I started realizing how claustrophobia – dread of tight spaces - might be a helpful term for life, especially in these days. We might not be lying in a tomb-like machine, but we can feel life squeezing us, closing in on us, making us fearful and full of dread.
If you are dealing with lingering aches in your heart, maybe deep worries about children, or sincere concerns about a parent, . . . or heavy grief – life can feel very closed in and dreadful.
If you are facing a big transition, and you have too much to do, and endless worries that keep you unsettled – life can feel pretty oppressive – not unlike a MRI machine.
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